New goal in life.

Mood: Determined

I have a new goal, in atleast my art, to basically be better.
I'm going to attempt different kinds of shading, i.e. cross hatching and such, to figure out what I think makes my drawings look better, so far cross hatching with a hint of blending seems to work.
Also not take like an hour or two to do something, I want my drawings to take me hours to complete, anything that has detail will have detail even down to eyelashes. You hear right, eyelashes, those strange things I never bothered to do in the first place.
After I find a bigger scanner I'll post some of my work, but until then it's practice time.

Artistic rut

Mood: Depressed

I haven't draw or done anything artistically productive in like 5 days, which is a record for me, I can atleast throw out a half way decent sketch, but nothing, in almost a week.
This sucks..

So my mom quit her job...

Mood: Spiraling downward

Today, instead of quitting years ago when her boss Donna started giving her shit. Instead of years ago, when we were doing just fine when it came to money, years ago when we didn't have to worry about paying student loans.
No she quits today, when we're on the verge of loosing our house. When Florida is 1% away from having the worst unemployment rate in the entire fucking country, and today when now we're paying for hers and my student loans...

She doesn't make any sense sometimes...

And with her core classes in college she'll have to do volunteer work at a hospital making it so she can't hold a job anyways. Ugh.. Keiser college is such a piece of shit

Can't wait til I get my hair cut!

Mood: Devious

After me and Kelly both get our hair cuts, we're going to make a date. We're going to go to Downtown Deland, at night, and take some pictures that revolve around Angels and Vampires. I think the city surroundings will really help to get our creative juices flowing for our pictures.

We're going to paint the town red.

Blood red.

Getting my hair cut

Mood: Excited

And possibly dyed in streaks
I'm keeping it long, but I'm getting bangs, like this

My pet peeve

Mood: Homicidal

So my biggest pet peeve has just been re-kindled tonight.
Someone over myspace, asked me if I would basically, illustrate this graphic novel idea they have. I couldn't think of a nice way to basically say no for a few hours.
But I left it as a nice way of saying

Pay me or fuck off.

I'm sick of drawing shit for people and never getting paid for it, and people wonder why the drawings I do for myself, compared to the ones I do for other people look better. It's because my drawings are self gratitude, I can't really pay myself for my own drawings.
So yes if you ask me to draw you something, and I don't get any money out of it don't expect it to fucking look good.

Especially since I've been to college art classes, and learned so much, and my art isn't mediocre like it was back in the day, I expect payment for my efforts. Especially from those fucking people who say "Draw me a fairy" and aren't specific on what the fuck they want, and just think I can pull something out of my ass.

God, I really hate people sometimes.

Today has been...

Mood: *sigh*

Pretty shitty.
Started off fine, til Matt's mom called saying he had to go help her at the Office after all, when she said he didnt have to last night..
So instead of the normal, ok lets go, he tells me to stay home, for all these really stupid reasons like, you'll be bored, even though the hundreds of times I've sat around while they cleaned the office I haven't and that I had to be there with my dad to go look at my friend Nathans car, when all I did was just sit there and watch.
So after a while of playing Spore I was more calm and whatever. My family went out to eat at Steak n' Shake, and Matt went to eat with his mom, and now he's not answering his phone -.- *sigh*
I hate when he does that shit.

So the kittens.

Mood: Swooning

Are out and walking. Holy shit it's adorable.

I'm broke again

Mood: Poor

I spent the 40 something dollars I made selling 2 of my books back to the school on The Witcher Enhanced Edition, with so much extra stuff in it the box weighs like 3 pounds.
Weeehehehehe.

http://www.atari.com/us/thewitcherbuy/

I've already played/ seen Matt beat the game already. But theres like 2 extra missions and hours more game play than the original.
I'm excited.

At school.

Mood: Booyah!

Finishing up my animation final, then I'll be done with school for 2 whole weeks
WEEEEE

Instead of working on my final

Mood: Under achiever

I've been playing Spore, and actually having a pretty good time, besides the usual flaws in a game, whether the clipping of the body parts or the fact that all the Ages in the game are 10 times shorter than space. It's pretty good.
It's fun to make things that just look ridiculously stupid and keep making them look more and more stupid.
So Wednesday I played it all day, which ironically when the new Zero Punctuation came out about Spore, I watched it and lawled.
Tomorrow is my last day of school for 2 whole weeks. I'm excited. I'm gonna beat some game I have yet to beat because of school, and maybe do some actual social fun things. Who knows.
All I know is I have to weeks to just relax with Matt, and that's good enough for me.

Iron Man

Mood: Horny

I just saw Iron Man tonight. I know, I know shame on me for not seeing it sooner, being the comic geek I am. Even with Robert Downey Jr., my all time favorite actor, in the movie I had my doubts. I downloaded it and it was actually really good, I was shitting bricks the entire time, as well as wetting my seat over Downey.
I've seen all of Downey's movies and have yet to be disappointed, atleast by his acting/ role in the movie..
I would do that man in a heart beat.

Mmmmmmm

Rockso the Mouse

Mood: Amused
My snake didn't eat one of his mice, cas the ones we got for him were too big. So I put the non eaten mouse in a Tupperware box, and put air holes in it, gave him some food and water.
His name is Rockso and he eats, ka-ka-ka Kitten food.

This is what he looks like

My school the Twat.

Mood: Enraged.

So my twat of a school decides to email me today and tell me that one of my classes that was supposed to be on Thursday has been moved to Saturday morning.
This is fucked for 2 reasons.

1) I can really only afford the gas to drive out there 3 days a week, not fucking 4.
2) No I'm not going to wake up at 6am on a SATURDAY just to go to some programming class.

It figures that the school would try to find some way to fuck me over this semester.

Oh Em Gee

Mood: Excited

So I randomly decided to try and email an old art teacher of mine to see if he replied, because he was the most badass art teacher I'd ever had, and if it wasn't for him I probably wouldn't have actually tried to excel so hard in drawing.
So he replied back, and I almost went into this school girl scream, but I didn't knowing it would freak Matt the fuck out.

:D That email just made my night.

The Kittens

Mood: In love with kittens
Are getting soooo big!
Born on August 29th so, they're 18 days old. It seems like it's been longer than 3 weeks.
This is the Sofi Jr, looks just like Mommy.
This is the noisey ass Calico, the only one we have left after the other calico disappeared :(
This is "Moose" he is a huge ass kitten.
The Moose body

Only one week left

Mood: Stressed out
Til I get my 2 week break.
Im excited. After 11 weeks of stress I think I deserve it.
I have 2 "finals" on thursday, a paper to hand in on Friday, and a final animation due, also on Friday. So far I'm only half way done with both the paper and the animation. Guess I better get to work.

New mood emoticons

Mood: Happy

From the Onion club
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I will be using these to express my emotion while blogging, cas apparently Blogger doesn't have a mood system.

D&D Weekend

Mood: Triumphant
D&D Weekend ahoy.
So Saturday after Matt's stepdad using him as cheap labor, we went off to D&D.
We were about to be punished by the GM for being late until we explained the situation. David's an awesome guy, and a great GM so he was merciful to our characters plee.
Well we all know what happens during D&D, we adventure, rape and pilage, because this is an EVIL campaign. So we basically raped the huge Dwarven castle/fortress, but because I died once, i lost 6k exp, he rolled Dwarf for the replacement race and I was like fuck that, and sucided, loosing another 3k exp, to become an Elf. So even after the adventure I'm still 4k exp in the hole.

The first night was fun, most of us were drinking Saki and having a good time. Me, Kollyn, and Colby made up a new drink, The Hiroshima, it's one part Sweet Tea, one part Saki, with an Atomic Fire ball ( the candy) at the bottom, let it sit for about 5 minutes and drink. It tastes like spicy apple juice.
We all stopped playing around 1pm, me and colby were in that relaxed after drinking state, we all were talking about paranormal crap we've all been through. I fell asleep around, I'm guessing.. 4am. David woke us all up at like 9:30 to start playing again and finish up the Dwarf rape before his roommates/band mates got home for band practice >_<.

Me and matt left at about 1:30 and came home and fell the fuck asleep.

That's about it, all and all I had fun. Can't wait til next months' session

Lol blogging

Mood: Pissed
Since the days of livejournal I haven't blogged in a good 2 years.
Well seems like right now would be perfect because I have plenty to rant about.
This week I've been house sitting the Mayfield house with Matt. Let's just say, big house and big pool, with big fat cats, and a puppy.
This week in school I had 2 presentations. Presentations are probably the hardest thing for me to do, I hate talking in front of a class. So I get my presentations done, and I'm ready to just go back to the Mayfield house and relax, go swimming with Matt and enjoy silence for once, seeing as how the day before Matt drove Nathan all the way down here to build Gundams.
So .. I get close to the house from school, I call Matt and what does he tell me?
"Oh my friend Travis is coming over to the house"
Here are a list of things wrong with that sentence.
1) Now because of this, I cant just relax and go swimming like I wanted.
2) Matt's friend Travis is a... I duno what.. He doesn't like when I'm around because "he doesn't know me" Yet has he tried to get to know me? No. He literally told Matt the last time Matt wanted to hang out with him, to not bring me because it would make him feel uncomfortable.
Well guess what Travis, your going to have to learn how to get along with your friends girlfriends or your not going to have any friends after you turn 25. It's called growing up and part of that means, meeting girls and getting married, and if you want to go over to your 'married friends house' and want his wife to leave her own goddamn house, you're not going to have that friend for very much longer.
3) Matt doesnt seeem to fucking realize why I'm upset. I get there and he's as chipper as can be. I walk through the door I dont look at him I don't say a word for 5 minutes. He realized I was upset, but not at what. I told him why I was upset, and it was like it went through one ear and out another.

I take maybe... a 30 minute nap on the couch while theyre in the other room playing Wii
2 hours pass and Matt hasnt even come out of the other room where they're playing the Wii to say hi to me. I call his cellphone so he'll run out to answer it, he looks at the phone and see's that I'm calling and runs over like "LOL whats up!" and I just give him this stare that could make a cougar run. I tell him exactly what the fuck is wrong, and he gets all sad, and say's he'll take Travis home.
This just makes shit better doesnt it.
Now Travis is going to think it's my fault that he has to leave cas of me 'being a bitch' or something. So Matt says he has to go back to Deltona and has to take Travis home.
He gets back from taking him home and is like "Im sorry" a million times, and I was just like "If you had maybe had more respect for what I wanted to do today, what I had had planned to do after I got home today, maybe this wouldn't be a fucking problem.."
After a while things were back to fine and dandy for the day..

Today:
I had to go back home early to be with my mom to put my school checks in the bank with her. So I get there around 9:30. Matts off helping his stepdad de-weed some banks, not supposed to take that long. Matt was told he would be done, at the Mayfields to shower, and back home by noon.
It's 2:30 and Matt had just left the Mayfields not too long ago. I don't know if maybe Matts stepdad fucking time travels or something.
But to make matters worse we're supposed to be in Orlando right now playing D&D, and Matt's stepdad had prior knowledge of these MONTH OLD PLANS. Yet apparently didn't go out of his way to just get shit done a little faster and let Matt go on his way.

So basically besides some good points, the last few days have been full of nothing but shit...
Now I get to go out to Orlando to play D&D and probably not sleep for the next 36 hours.. Awesome.